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…a few quiet moments to restore balance and harmony in these difficult times
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Those of you who follow me on Facebook may have read my post from the beginning of the week where I wrote “Feeling Hopeful and Optimistic”.  It actually seemed to me that things were heading to an end and sanity would be restored.

It seemed like the idea of “quiet being answered by quiet” would work, and then we would just have to finish the work of finding and destroying as many of the tunnels as possible That at last the deaths and casualties of innocent civilians and the destruction would cease on both sides. And hopefully while working on the tunnels, as few soldiers as possible would be injured or killed…was I really so naive? or just being honestly, innocently and truly optimistic?

After all, we’ve destroyed lots of rockets, and how many could they have left anyway? And once they could no longer throw death and destruction at us, we, of course, would no longer have reason for “disproportional” response. And then, just the tunnels, just the tunnels, just the tunnels to deal with.

So why does it continue and continue and continue? Could I really be so naive and innocent and ridiculously “hopeful and optimistic”?

Is there truly no end in sight to this continued conflict? These continued wars?

Will we eternally have to fight this enemy that so desperately wants to be rid of as that it would sacrifice its own children relentlessly and savagely to that cause? And will our own children who are now soldiers continue to die defending us? Will the children living through all this grow up  in a world of continued war and hatred?

How do we end this? How do we return to harmony, sanity, peace, permanently? And not just for a few precious moments every now and then during respites in the fighting and killing, or those precious few moments out in Nature?

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Are WE doing something wrong? Should we be using more force? Less force? Or is it just a loose-loose situation? Could it really be that there IS no peaceful solution? I refuse to imagine that that is so. But if, as they say, they truly “live” to see the end of Israel, and Jews everywhere, then the battle to survive is eternal for us?

It is now 5 AM. My mind is in a whirl, despairing thoughts going round and round, thoughts I don’t want to be thinking, but have no choice…I will continue to strive to maintain my own focus on Faith, Freedom from Fear, Peace, Sanity, Love, Optimism, Harmony

…but how long can I continue to feel “hopeful and optimistic” without feeling “foolish”?

…and as they say in Facebook statuses:  “feeling annoyed, confused, desperate, frustrated, angry, pained, pissed, threatened, heartbroken, discouraged, perplexed.”

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May God bless us with Peace!

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While preparing yesterday for my Reiki workshop (which takes place today), a long forgotten photo of Abdellahji found its way , “by chance”,  into my hands while looking for some information sheets I had filed away. The photo was actually sent to me by mail and on the back is written:  ” Much love to you my dearest friend – Abdellahji”.

And then , this morning, getting ready for the arrival of participants, as I sat checking out my last minute notes on the computer, an even weirder thing happened.  I have magnetic picture frames on my refrigerator and one of my favorite photos is the last one I have of my parents together, happily looking into my eyes .  I heard a noise while my back was to the fridge and turned around to see where it came from.

THE PHOTO OF MY PARENTS HAD FALLEN OFF THE REFRIGERATOR!!.

How a magnet could come detached from a metal surface all on its own is beyond my comprehension, but I now know that these loving departed souls, Abdellahji and my parents, were just letting me know that they are with me during this workshop to give me further encouragement, guidance and direction and to let me know they always know what is going on in my life, and are proud  of me and happy for me   :-).

I am so moved by this happening to me, as well as by the fact that I understand WHAT it means, that I am currently overwhelmed with tears of joy as I sit and write.

The mysteries of the Universe are many, and if we just take the time to pay attention and be aware,  we are surrounded with love and caring and blessings at all times.

with love light and JOY

Jane

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Life’s Detours, Their Blessings and Lessons

 This being a difficult week for me has brought me blessings as well. I have been thinking of my parents a lot and following a comment on my recent post “Letting Go”, found myself guided to reread the blog I originally wrote in Memory of my father In Memoriam .  While reading the blog, I was drawn to the following post, and thought it appropriate for this blog at this time.  Since my not being in India this year (the only reason this current blog came into being at all) is also one of life’s detours, similar to the one described below, I felt it worth sharing.  It is a kind of coming full circle.  Would love to hear any stories  YOU may have regarding detours, blessings and lessons along the journey.  Hope you enjoy the post below as well.

October 14, 2006 (2 days before my Father’s Passing)

This Post also originally appeared on my Mindfulness Journal but I am including it here, with some editing, as it is part of the story…and certainly proves how important it is to follow our heart when making decisions…if we are connected with, and attuned to our soul, we can never go wrong!

My life has taken a detour, again (what we perceive as a detour in our journey, is only OUR understanding of the turn of events. Truth is, things are unfolding exactly as they should and all things occur as they are meant to at the moment in the Universal plan of things)…and has, at the same time, given me the opportunity for further growth through new lessons learned. When one is forced to take a detour on a planned journey, it does not mean that he cannot enjoy the scenery on the new route. Perhaps pleasant scenery is not part of this detour for me, but certainly blessings to be found and lessons to be learned are.

I am, at the moment, NOT in India as planned. As things worked out, two days before my scheduled flight, I canceled my plans.

I had every intention of going to India to revive my spirit, recharge my batteries so to speak and gather new and fresh energies to help me continue caring for my ailing father, and give support to my Mother at this most difficult of times in her life.

However, the situation being what it is, I simply could not have achieved any of these goals in India due to the deterioration in my father’s health and the need to be here at this time. I would have been unable to release to the magical powers of the Mountains and it would have been a simple waste of time and money.

It is my privilege to be here now and help in any way I can to make my father’s passing as easy as possible and provide support to my Mother at the same time. I will not go into detail (for reasons I will write about shortly), beyond saying that my father has not been granted an easy and dignified end to his life. It is truly amazing to witness the power of fear, concern, worry and guilt, and how they can keep a soul, already cleansed and ready to depart, prisoner in a physical vessel which is, for all intent and purposes, no longer “living”.

I myself have entered a new stage in my relationship with my father, just as lovers do when the dimension of physical intimacy is added to their relationship. It changes things forever in ways that cannot be described in words. If the relationship is a truly loving one, the new intimacy is profound and felt well beyond the physical level-as deep as can be-two souls meet and commune and become one. And in the same way that these lovers would want to share the essence of their new relationship without sharing the intimate physical details, so I myself have found it fitting NOT to share the technical details of the my father’s condition- not to go into the very intimate details of my father’s last days, but will just say that the essence of this added dimension to my relationship with him, the wonder and new depth in our relationship is a gift beyond words.

This is the blessing this detour has given me with my father.

To see his physical distress, pain and frustration, to feel his raw emotional distress and anguish, is probably the most difficult lesson I have had to endure so far in my life. To watch this gentle loving man go through this lingering, undignified end to a proud and honorable life is almost beyond endurance. My helplessness is unbearable at times-the frailty of the physical body vs. the tenacity and strength of the mind, and our thoughts and beliefs, incomprehensible. The will and determination of the human mind to survive in the physical is beyond rationale, especially when the body in its physical form has just about completely shut down.

I do my best to comfort him with Reiki when he is willing to accept these loving energies, as he is granted respite from his physical and emotional torment. There is a visible change in his entire facade, his breathing, his muscle tone and he seems to enter a state of complete relaxation and release. However, he very often refuses to receive Reiki. His fears overwhelm him…he is drowning in fear, the fear that if he relaxes his grip for a moment on his physical reality, “something” will happen. What that something is he is unaware of, but the fear prevents him from allowing himself the luxury of release.

Like many Western people, my father has never talked about, or even thought of, Death and certainly has never contemplated his own passing. He has no concept of “soul” and the only thing which is real for him is the physical realm. He has never questioned his own mortality or the essence of the soul vs. the physical body needed to keep that soul here on Earth. And as a result, he is paralyzed by fear, of the unknown, of his own helplessness in his situation, by the complete breakdown of everything physical, and yet the rational mind will not, or is incapable of, giving in or releasing its grip. The only thing we can do now is to keep him as comfortable as possible for as long as necessary for him to finish his own processes. For those lucky enough to feel no fear of passing over, the final moment becomes a peaceful one-but for those who are completely unprepared, the need to cling to the familiar, to the physical, is overwhelming.

This is a lesson which challenges my beliefs to the core, and to my great joy, I find my beliefs unshakably strong . That knowledge is reassuring and I am most grateful to God and to the Universe for allowing me once again to be in a difficult and unsettling situation which COULD have shattered all I’ve held to be true. For allowing me to look in the mirror , see my professed beliefs held up for scrutiny, and still find them steadfast.

All DOES happen for our Higher Good, ALL things are a blessing, and the human mind, our intentions, our thoughts, CAN and DO make seemingly impossible things happen on a physical level.

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